#thx to all my readers

 here you can see a summary of my blogreaders from the past two months since i launched my blog. amazing to see where u guys come from :) big hugs to all of you and thanks for reading! 706 readers total by now, within two months - wooow! u really have to consider that i don't "push" my blog at all - if i posted something new then i just link it via facebook once and that's it.

so although i don't have hundreds of readers per day, i'm really happy when i see that at least one person was online to read something from me. have to say though that i do this for myself, i get unhappy and upset when i'm not able to write down my inner most thoughs - and of course i try to reach out to people who feel the same and seek for a little advice or inspiration. and omg, no, the amount of douchebags and bitches won't decrease by tomorrow - so we'll always "fight" with the same problems. but hey, head up and smile!

i'm a hopeless romantic and no, i don't stop believing that honesty, chivalry & a good heart is all a gentleman needs to pave the rocky road to a lady's heart.

but till we find mr. super nice, we'll mess around with mr. douchebag, mr. cheater, mr. lyer, mr. go fuck yourself, mr. i can have them all and mr. i'm not ready for a fucking relationship.

and i will surely bring some light in and help you gals to leave them where they belong - to the left, to the left, everything you own -> in a box to the left. cuz what do we say? we are too precious, wonderful and hella fly to waste our time with mr wrong!

xxxx

#8 inspired post

when picking my accessories for a night out i mostly go with nice, big earrings and something for my wrist - but last but not least i take my smile with me. in my opinion it's the most magnetizing thing a woman can chose out of hundred others things to wear - a nice bright smile that reaches the eyes.

imagine this: you are a guy, who is out to have a blastin fun time with his boys. same as all of the other 100 people in the club at the same time - oh here we go, some fucked up chicks who look quite hot. yeh, but they look so bored, arrogant and seem to be full with themselves - 7 days raining? hey check out that girl over there, damn what a nice smile - she must be havin a good time.

when i look around i often see beautiful women but something is missing, they barely smile! yeh they might laugh - especially when they are already fucked up - but i rarely see big happy smiles. smiling from the heart makes you happy and others too! i love it when people smile at me and i can see their eyes smiling too - i see enough moody and "emo-like" people everyday! is it so hard or does it hurt so much to smile?! oh wait if so, emos would smile the whole time lol people pass by me, saying "good morning" without smiling, that's like giving me a glass without water in it!!!! i don't need anyone to tell me good morning when they can't overcome themselves to smile a little at least.

i love when i can't hold back my smile because i'm overly excited or just ridiculously happy about something - that happens pretty fast though. do you know that nice feeling when you can make someone else more happy because you kinda glow happiness? even if i'm down or upset about something - often it takes just a little fun or some stupid things and there you have me - all smiling again. guess that is kind of a little curse, a nice looking one though, but i tend to forgive within the same second as a huge smile runs over my lips. i'm not a person to be mad at someone for long, i often curse myself because i figure out that i simply can't "hate" someone, although i say you should never carry hate in your heart, you surely get my point. no matter how mad i can get for a few minutes, an authentic sorry, a lil hug and a funny face and i'm over it. guess that's a matter of your personality, as some people can be mad at you for soooo long it's ridiculous.

why waste your precious beauty & lifetime with looking and feeling all sad and worthless? big up and look in the mirror, there is so much to love about everyone, why not start with yourself? i don't have a perfect shaped face and no i don't wear size 0 nor do i look like a model - but i'm happy with myself!!!! and that's my way of expressing my beauty. a smile can be inspired by many things or people, but how can it be inspired if it isn't there in the first place - so be happy with yourself first and the rest will follow. i'll have wrinkles when i'm getting older, but heck those will be mainly smiling-wrinkles!!!

so the next time you are unsure which accessorie will make you look the best - chose a big fat ass happy smile.

#1 songs on repeat - beyonce "why don't you love me"

aka SJD sunshine

N-n-now, honeyYou better sit down and look around'Cause you must've bumped yo' headAnd I love you enough to talk some sense back into you, baby

I'd hate to see you come homeMe, the kids, and the dog is goneCheck my credentialsI give you everything you want, everything you needEven your friends say I'm a good womanAll I need to know is why?

Why don't you love me?Tell me, baby, why don't you love meWhen I make me so damn easy to love?

And why don't you need me?Tell me, baby, why don't you need meWhen I make me so damn easy to need?

I got beauty, I got classI got style and I got assAnd you don't even care to care, looka here

I even put money in the bank accountDon't have to ask no one to help me outYou don't even notice that

Why don't you love me?Tell me, baby, why don't you love meWhen I make me so damn easy to love?

Why don't you need me?Tell me, baby, why don't you need meWhen I make me so damn easy to need?

I got beauty, I got heartKeep my head in them books, I'm sharpBut you don't care to know I'm smartN-n-n-n-n-no

I got moves in your bedroomKeep you happy with the nasty things I doBut you don't seem to be in tune, ooh

Why don't you love me?Tell me, mister, why don't you love meWhen I make me so damn easy to love?

Why don't you need me?Tell me, mister, why don't you need meWhen I make me so damn easy to need?

There's nothing not to love about meNo, no, there's nothing not to love about meI'm lovely, there's nothing not to need about me

No, no, there's nothing not to need about meMaybe you're just not the oneor maybe you just plain...

blew yo chance

#4 ladies only - avoid walking home alone when it's late

pic by theresplendentlife.wordpress.com

well let's face it, us women are physically in disadvantage and if we heat up an argument too much it's very much possible that this will not end very well. usually i'm not afraid at all to walk home alone, when someone approached me i could easily wave a friendly "no sorry, gotta go now!" and yes, usually that's it and it won't cause any trouble. not this time. i walked home after bringing my bff to her place, was around 3am, would take me about 20 minutes usually, when two men crossed my way and yes, of course they tried to hook me up in a conversation. such a perfect prey they might have though, petite, younger and most of all alone - usually in such situations i pull out my phone and pretend that I'm txting or calling someone.they were whisteling and throwing some "super hot hook up lines" as "hey beautilful, where ya goin?" - so i threw back a rather cold "yeh yeh whatever - none of your business" while walking my way.

they came after me, trying to talk to me and i told them multiple times that i don't want to talk to them. i was scared to be honest because they didn't leave! so i kept walking but those f*cked up weirdos still walked beside me when suddenly one of them pulled my arm - i can tell you i was so so so so scared - telling me i should stop for a second "we just wanna talk to you for a min don't be so arrogant", so i pulled back and shout that he shouldn't touch me. seriously there was nobody on the street and i felt so alone and so scared. however one of the guys had to throw up on the sidewalk (there you go you f*cking bastard) and the second one was so irritated that i grabed the chance and ran away - thank god i wasn't far from home and i guess i never opened the door that quick since i live there. jesus... it started quickly and ended quickly but it made me reconsider what i could do to feel safer.

to be honest it could have gone bad and i think i was rather lucky this time - so my advice is:

• avoid getting into such situations! take a cab/last bus/etc instead of walking home alone, especially when it takes you more than 15/20 minutes and you walk through less crowded places!
• if you get in such situations, don't give them any oppertunity to feel offended - they're like little drama queens they will feel like their ego has been destroyed - best would be to just walk on without saying anything!!!!
• pull out your cell phone while walking, either call someone who will stay on the phone with you until you are home or pretend to be on the phone if you pass some dubious people
• avoid walking through empty streets, if you walk, chose streets where a lot of cars drive by
• don't give in and don't let them follow you to your place, especially when you live alone - don't do that!
• consider to buy some sort of pepperspray
• txt your bff when you made it home, that way she'll know everything's fine
• don't give any response - sure that could also cause a situation - but that way you give them less "surface" to go back on

however, it's a nice feeling when you have someone who loves you + you feel safer automatically - but if there's no man in your life who actually is there for you, then you do feel somehow more insecure in such situations. can't really explain it though but every woman wishes for a man to have her back. it might be in our nature to want a protective man on our side where we feel secure and are allowed to show "female weakness" - well of course he can't be around us 24/7 but you get my point. i wished I had that...

review: crest whitestrips supreme - teeth whitening at home

DISCLAIMER: 
i'm not a professional!!! however, if you should be unsure about whitening your teeth then consider an advice from your dentist!

upper: 1 year ago / lower: today

those suckers are stained - of course - i smoke, i drink coffee, tea, wine etc - so it's time to whiten them again.

last time i did that was 2 yrs ago with crest whitestrips professional effect, now i'm trying out the supreme ones. let me simply break down the few differences to you and give you some facts:

h y d r o g e n   p e r o x i d e

hydrogen peroxide bleaches organic stuff, also known as peroxide (my hicolor contained peroxide which was activated with the cream developer) - my blonde bleaching kit wouldn't have worked without this chemical agent. lesser known is its use for whitening our teeth (talking about at-home-products in europe) you don't get whitestrips in the regular drugstore, you have to order them online. 

crest whitestrips professional effects worked pretty good - with 10% hydrogen peroxide - guess i used it for 10-14 days last time until i had my desired whitening level. the supreme ones contain 14% hydrogen peroxide as mentioned, so it works faster and you don't need to do a 20 day treatment like with the professional ones. i will go for a 14 days treatment this time - not 20 days, don't wanna end up with too white teeth like naddel haha

at the same time as it works faster, gumline irritations or tooth pain can accure (cuz it's stronger) - that should be considered if you are going to buy them. i have healthy teeth so i don't feel any discomfort with the stronger ones.

d o' s   &  d o n' t s

• if you have sensitive teeth (you notice that pretty easy when you drink ice cold water or eat ice cream and your teeth hurt) - don't use whitestrips professional effects or supreme ones
• don't brush your teeth immediately before using the strips, wait at least an hour before you apply them (healthy teeth/gumline or not, if you use them straight after brushing then you'll fell discomfort/little pain)
• the package says 2x a day for about 30 min - i use it 1x a day for an hour - works fine for me
• if you decide to start, then pull through and use them everyday until the treatment is done - don't skip days! had a few girls who complained about how it's not working lol they skipped days + smoked like hell LOL seriously? don't skip even one day! (it's something else when you experience sensitivity or pain - but then you need to double the time of treatment days for accurate effects)
• during the treatment days do your best to avoid smoking, coffee and things that could stain your teeth - i don't smoke after i applied the strips, meaning i use it in the late evening before going to bed.
• if you want to smoke, drink coffee or whatever wait at least half an hour and brush your teeth after it
• don't wear them overnight and don't stress over an hour - you might not be able to properly drink or eat the next days. yeh you don't want to try that out
• use crest whitestrips not some wannabe blend-a-med shit 
• you can drink water anytime after you took the strips off
• brush your teeth gently after taking them off, that way you can remove leftover gel that is still on your teeth (doesn't taste good at all)
• where i bought them? ebay for 37€

you simply place the upper strip on your upper teeth. gel side facing your teeth of course, and put it into place. it will be a bit too wide for your teeth, so simply flip back the rest. same with the lower strip. the supreme ones don't stick that good as the professionals do, but it's ok.

longer one: upper strip / short one: lower strip

r e s u l t s

I'll continue to post pictures in here, so you can see the progress. day 3 by now and i can see a nice little difference - ok i should say that if your teeth never have been whitened before then you will see a bigger difference i guess, but my teeth are still brighter than others, so my progress isn't that obvious at first. why i do it? heck because i want to.

upper: day 1 vs lower: day 3
lol see my wolf fang teeth? yeh ugly i know, you don't see it when i smile - only when i shout or laugh my ass off
fazit: whiter after day 3!!

after 7th application - end
still having wolf fangs but hey they shine so bright :D 

#3 ladies only - trust equals respect

quote / pic by thecrazytruth.tumblr.com

sometimes our own mind plays little nasty games with us, worst case scenarios creep around and surrender knocks heavily on our door. especially if we expect something nice to happen because someone told us so – it’s so easy in fact to run after it because we doubt that it will happen on its own or because we thought it would come around quicker.

i don’t really like to use the word desperation, no it’s more a sign that you don’t trust if you go running after it. a lack of trust is a lack of respect – if you can’t put trust into the smallest things he tells you then you don’t have any trust in him. respecting him means more than just accepting him as he is, it means that you give him your trust and won’t doubt his ability to stick to his statements or promises.

there are reasons why things don’t happen right away or at a time YOU wish for – but that doesn’t mean that they won’t.

knowing that they will happen is big and powerful because it shows your doubtless trust. people underestimate und underrate it all the time – “i love him but i don’t trust him, so i run after him. otherwise he will forget about me and will move on” wrong, wrong, wrong.

there is no love when there is no trust - there might be feelings but love requires earned and given trust. it’s true even when it sounds a bit weird:

“you may not trust someone you love. but you can always love someone you trust”

i would alter it a bit though because there isn’t any love without trust – simple as that. and trust isn’t given from the start, therefore love doesn’t happen overnight! love takes time as the trust grows you have and trust can only grow when fed right. so by running after him you show that he’s not able to match your expectations in your eyes – because if you’d actually trust him then you’d know that he’ll be there and won’t forget about you. that’s why there is no reason to cause a scene when things don’t happen according to your “timeline”, it would show that you lacked trust while you indeed waited! that’s the big difference between waiting, doubting, fearing, disrespecting & knowing, trusting, respecting!

no obvious evidence that he broke your trust? no fearful desperation needed until it’s proven otherwise! weak love will never build up a loving and stable home.

if you can bring up doubtless and genuine trust – then you carry strong love for him in your heart.