#king kravate - the neckwear of kings

justin king is the owner of king kravate and he gave me the amazing opportunity to wear a few of his bow ties - never thought about wearing one before! beside that i had to look for a tutorial on how to tie a bow tie - when i wore it the first time, i just though "dang... that's classy, elegant and i feel so feminine". his bow tie just fits to my neck/jar proportions, it's not too wide and not too small. thank you again so so so much justin! 

be sure to check out his website: www.kingkravate.com - shipping worldwide

there you find bow ties, neckties and other accessories made for the modern, classy gentleman - or classy lady with grace! handmade with love and quality materials - get yourself a piece of class.

instagram or twitter? kingkravate

his bow ties are self ties, but it isn't that hard at all! check out this tutorial, i learned it that way within minutes - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GPmsxHOCXY

wearing a bow tie makes me improve my posture because i feel so classy, i paired it with an eye catching makeup - guess that's key because it makes the whole picture very alluring. having the focus both on my eyes and the bow tie - don't go with bold lips, too much!

used different filters, but the colors are so nice and lovely! as you can see i didn't wear a button up shirt - which is a must for men, but for women, we should go without one because we accentuate our delicate neck area - don't hide it with a shirt! i love it!

my hair journey: red hair - 2nd touch up

touched up my lengths nd roots last time in march while i was correcting some patchy spots - see my older post

finally my hairdyes arrived whoop whooooop - lifted my roots nd lengths yesterday with l'oreal hicolor in red, i used both tubes. first i applied it to the lengths and let it sit there for about 30 mins - after that i applied it to my roots and went for another 15 mins - taddaaaa! i applied it to the lengths this time cuz it was quite uneven - only way to correct it, is going all over it again or to work with bleach.

before - 8 weeks without touching up

window light / after touching up with hicolor "red"

bathroom light / no hot roots but nice red roots :D  WIN

so today's plan - mixing manic panic with directions hair dye and work it all over to give it a more vibrant and significant red tone.

p r o d u c t s   u s e d

• l'oreal hicolor in red 2x
• cream developer 30% - 140 ml

• manic panic vegan hair dye "rock n' roll red" 1x & "vampire red" 1/2 of the tube
• directions vegan hair dye "poppy red" 1x

u s e f u l l   t h i n g s

• vaseline - apply it to your entire hair/headline to avoid stain on your skin
• gloves
• container for the dye and application brush
• medium hair clip
• hair tie

2nd pic - dyes left to right:  rock n' roll red / poppy red / vampire red

leftovers - what a yummi red

i filled up the poppy red container with leftovers! don't throw it away - i keep it for now and then touch ups in between until i repeat the whole process in 2 months. don't forget to wear gloves when mixing it with your conditioner!!

l: final result after 2nd touch up
r: before, last touch up 8 weeks ago

well, honestly it turned out darker than i wanted it to - guess it's because of the "rock n roll red" by manic panic - should have picked a brighter red. it is brighter than before - but i wanted it like bright bright red. however, my roots are red, my lengths are more even and i'm good with it. but i'm already flirting with another color.. oh well that's how i am.

#9 ladies only - back to basics

today's society changed us ladies - the way we talk, the way we walk, the way we love. i dare to say that we might have lost our ladylike side.

in my opinion every woman should behave proportional to her value - her self esteem- and that should be sky high! i know we've all been there, falling for someone who we thought he was the one - but it failed. what does that tell you? no, don't come up with i'm not attractive/sexy enough - probably he wasn't ready.

a lady's value is expressed by the way she walks, talks and loves - walk like a goddess, talk like a queen and love like venus.

be able to fulfill a man's mental needs, be a woman who knows what's around her, knows where her money comes from, knows how to earn it with her intelligence, give him something to think about - twirl with your mental eyelashes, be mind blowing with your mental wittiness and strength - talk with sweet diplomacy, keep your head were it belongs, up high with grace, let him want to show you his mental value - fascinate him with your beautiful smile that reaches your eyes. keep your humor, talk straight but with discretion, keep your soft look - a look that tries to read his heart and mind, understand him but never lose your ground - stand it - and be kind with your words.

smoking and drinking is nothing "unladylike" if you do it with elegance mixed with a little spice in your eyes, it is absolutely lady like. keep your table manners and hold up your posture, when your feet hit the ground, it demonstrates your grace and value, when you smile it demonstrates your heart's treasure, when you kiss it demonstrates your passion in purity.

if you talk to me, impress my mind with your chivalry, take me on a mental trip with your deep and rich personality, keep me with your daring and brave heart. teach me something, show me the other point of view. make me admire you - before i adore you. undress me with the mental affection i have for you, tease me with your masculine traits, make me vulnerable with your heart's language. be dominant and self assured when you bed talk with me, teach me new passion, show me passion and i'll teach you a new language full of love, desire and happiness. know him better than he knows himself, know his darkest facets and turn them into his brightest.

a man who impresses me first via my mind, conquers me first via my mind and keeps me like a proud king - he shall have it all, if he earns it step by step.

keep up with my passion, show me each time that there aren't any limits, no routine, love me each day like it was the first and last - make me lose my mind, pulling the sheets and scream out my desire for you. hold me like it's the first and last time, make my mind never run out of thirst.

but before we should even think about it - be a lady, be proud, smart, loving, forgiving and brave - mr charming and mr prince will step aside as mr king walks along our way.

#11 inspired post

pic/quote by dapper_grandiose_fashion (instagram)

we all do mistakes, we all do things that aren't right - things that can hurt people around us, sometimes we know exactly that if they find out, it will hurt them. lies mostly push you away - more and more - from what you try to achieve by lying.

dear men, most of the time a lady knows when you lie to her - she won't say a thing though, hoping you man up and speak the thruth on your own with your brave heart. she will give you some time to redeem your own nasty behavior, worst thing you can do is to spin a larger and larger web of lies. if you keep on lying you don't only disappoint her, you break her heart & trust.

i don't have to love a man as my partner to be deeply hurt and disappointed - even if some ways split, there remains respect and trust into each other - you probably knew each other for many many years or had a long history together as a couple.
realizing that you were trapped into a decision, maybe giving another last chance, by constantly lying and trying to trigger you with more and more lies - that is something i don't have words for. by turning down to give this chance you should come up with your knowledge, teach him a lesson that lies won't ever bring him further than to the next doorbell. 

everytime you lie, the possibility that she already knows the truth is so big, it's terrible hurting that you lie, but that you keep on with that is more hurting. we aren't as stupid as you wish we'd be - but we are so warmhearted to give you chances over chances to speak up with the truth - until we finally close the door because you lost us, our respect and our trust.

look around you, are you happy now? you lost me, again, i hope she is worth it that you even lost that remaining respect i had for you - as a man. she might know about you asking me for another chance - how can you be with a girl who doesn't have any self respect? i have self respect, i am proud of who i am and i won't stick around while being treated so poorly. because i am a lady and i am proud of my decisions.

#8 ladies only - be classy not trashy

don't we all like to show ourselves from our best side? don't we all like to doll up more or less? obviously, i do.

but don't we all know at least one girl - i refuse to call "that" a lady - or should i say camslut, who just shows off her boobs, ass, legs? like all up in my face she puts her slutty self in scene, makes me want to vomit all over her. guess they never heard anything about being classy? u never heard about cropping ur pics?!

well, i don't care what others think of me but i can assure myself that i am not slutty. oh you tell me you have class bla bla, naaaah you don't think you are slutty?! honey please, take a closer look at your pics and tell me again that pressing out your boobs in your super deep v-cut shirt isn't slutty at all. naaaah, posing in stockings isn't slutty either, right? nd no, showing of half naked with a sultry look isn't slutty too. damn those girls think they are victoria secret models, nope they're not. you present yourself on the silver tablet for everyone to see - sure you like the attention you get from men cuz their primitive sexdriven brain can easily switch into sex-mode (ok fair enough, not all men) + that takes away the attention from your face that looks like a truck went over it three times incl. reverse. yeh you are so sexy.

being sexy is being classy at the same time, sexy doesn't mean slutty. slutty is slutty.
sexiness is about being confident about yourself, about your beauty, about your worth as a lady. ehm no, by showing off your tits and the rest of your body in tight short clothes isn't very valuable - it's like a sale advertisement "come fuck me, i'm cheap nd i don't have any sense for selfworth" omg hilarious isn't it? talking about that cheap ass pics where you can just look between her tits from above or whatever angle - but wait here comes the best. almost all of these camsluts pretend to be so innocent, oh my god there we have our next mother teresa, right? oh wait, she just pretends to be so charming and innocent - deep down she is an attention seeking girl who is so desperate to show off. you really want to date a girl like her? probably a lot of man jerk off with her pics - oh yes, soooo valuable and classy.

well, you know what ladies? grab attention and admiration from others with your beautiful face, your beautiful smile, your beautiful eyes which let shine through your beautiful heart! if i didn't have that i'd camslut too ha ha ha no seriously, that's disgusting - but at the same time it gives me a smile, knowing i'll never have to go down so low to have people noticing me. as i mentioned in my other post, they might have a perfect body shape, they might have cup ddd - but they lack personality and inner beauty. how do i know? cause i never see them smiling from the heart, instead they whore around nd give proof by pressing their tits into the cam....  make that ish say hi to me into the cam while she blows you

keep your class and keep those special views for the man you love and who's worth it, who will wait and earn the honor to see you in the most intimate and beautiful surrounding. even in bed you can be classy but sexy as hell - stockings/dessous don't have to be slutty at all. he'll starve to finally get his big price, make it something special and he'll feel like having christmas, bday and easter all in one. blow him away with your seductive lady attitude, not with your slutty self, where 50% of the guys can say "aaaah nothing new, i've already seen her posing super slutty half naked - uhhhh i'd fuck her"

don't have to thank me, you're welcome honey

#makeup 101 - bold lips

p r o d u c t s    u s e d

blue nivea creme (tin)

mac studio fix fluid - NC30

bobbi brown sheer finish loose powder - 05 soft sand

essence lipliner - cute pink

l'oreal intense color riche lipstick - 288 intense fuchsia

no name lipgloss - clear

bold lips are sexy, great to look at and def an eye catcher - wether you are blessed with a great bright smile or not. do yourself a favor and get those bities bleached, seriously. when you compare older pics of yourself to your bright smile now, then you'll be shocked how yellowish they were.

h o w    t o

• exfoliate your lips before doing your makeup and nurture them with nivea creme (ca 10 mins before)
• wipe off excess creme and apply a little of your foundation to your lips
• blot your lips with a little(!) loose powder to set the foundation
• contour your lips with a sharpened lipliner, starting in the middle working your way out - from the outer corners you work inwards
• fill in your lips with the liner
• blend in the contours and filled in areas with a lip brush
• apply your lipstick with a lip brush, beginning in the middle, work your way out - at the corners work your way inwards
• repeat putting lipstick on your lips and make sure you work it evenly with your brush
• let it set for a few seconds and apply clear lipgloss generously with a brush

n o   no 

• avoid yellowish, orangy tones if you have yellowish teeth, they will look even more yellowish.. trust me, not nice
• carry your lipstick, liner and gloss with you when you have a night out etc, although this method is longlasting you surely want to touch up after a few hrs, so it stays shiny shiny
• make use of the finger sucker move - please! last thing you want is lipstick on your teeth 
• if you don't have nice bright teeth then just avoid focusing on your lips - seriously - instead try to pull focus on your eyes. keep your lips nude or give them a slight touch of color with gloss
• if your teeth are just slightly yellow then pick lipsticks with blue undertones, those will make your bities look brighter

examples:

seriously? what's up with their makeup artists?

ok wether blue based tones or not - if you have such yellow teeth get them bleached or don't wear bold lipstick!!! even with a paler lipstick as seen on drew berrymore, it looks bad.

to avoid this one you simply have to stick your index finger in your mouth, and pull it out while you suck on it - lipstick which sticks to your finger would have been on your teeth sooner or later ;) 

my hair journey: red hair - touch up ordering

so now that my roots show up about 1.9 inches *icks* i finally ordered my touch up products!
as i work with semi permanent dyes i can easily mix my very own mixture - right now i wear manic panic "vampire red" mixed with directions "poppy red". this time i ordered manic panic "rock n roll red" with "vampire red" - for my roots i'll be using l'oreal hicolor in red, this way i lift them without pre bleaching! gonna do another post when i did my touch up routine

current red tone - yeh without any filter/correction uuuuuyyy
this is my vampire red & poppy red mix

#7 ladies only - the bunnies & yellow boletus' "aha" effect

this will be some kind of "lessons learned" - i want to say thank you to someone who taught me a lot and although i learned it very late, i learned with a big AHAAAA effect. and although you always tell me to not thank you, i truly have to - because this is a big life lesson, your patience with me wasn't for nothing, it really helped.

i was an emotional whore, impatient and too forcing - i got my receipt bashed on the table and i had to pay for it - huge ass bill, guess my credit card is overdrawn. i ordered a gourmet menu i couldn't afford.

i wanted it all and i wanted it already yesterday on my table - what i got was an expensive "lessons learned", which tastes real good with a bitter sidetaste. too much for me to bite off and i got it stuck in my throat - making me suffocate.

i've always seen my bright side of heart because i'm all about giving giving giving - but you can't refill a glass which is already full - overdrippin on the floor and if you don't watch, the glass might drop on the floor - i might catch it just before it hits but then the glass might be empty, with nothing left to drink.

i think i'm the perfect example for an emotional whore, i texted too much, too often, too emotional, too suffocating, threw myself at him like my life would depend on it. always grabbing for the last haulm lemongrass that was there, grab more and more and soon there wasn't anything left to grab. too bad

so listen to that cuz i got told something very important and i understood it way later when i got confronted with it by others, going through the same - just vice versa.

if you walk through the forest, forcing yourself and life to finally see a bunny hopping across your way

- you will never see one, don't force it and when you finally see one after you thought you'd never see one - happiness will be much bigger

if you walk through the forest and all you see are hundreds of bunnies

- it will get on your nerves and they are a reason for you to turn around, 

running in the opposite direction cause it became ordinary and lame

it's like going mushrooming for yellow boletus'

when you finally find one you are so happy, pick it up and take it home

appreciating it because it's rare to find

so a friend of mine from back in the days as kids told me about her new guy and how much he was suffocating her with his attention and pressure for moving forward and there was my first AHA effect - he texts her like 10 times a day, always longer texts, always replying in an instant until she almost went crazy coconuts when her phone beeped for the 100th time - she looked at me and said: gosh that might sound mean but this man isn't a challenge at all, it drives me crazy how attached he is - too much for me, suffocating my interest.

i slightly blushed with wide opened eyes, thinking to myself "fuck jess, you did the exact same thing. of course without any bad purposes - but you suffocated your mc dreamy until he ran the other way"

my ex, this is very interesting, he still wants me back - to my surprise - we are in touch here and there, but last week he dropped the bomb: i want you back and i want you now. i told him that i enjoy time with him, talking and stuff as i'm still very used to him and of course little little feelings are there, i know him for years!  but it's not enough for me to pull back yet - i told him i need time and that i can't decide in an instant - why not enjoy time together and see where it goes again? he keeps forcing and forcing, making pressure how he feels bad without me and how he can't wait any longer for me to decide, wants to know where we stand etc. 

that just followed a few days after i had my convo with my girl and it hit me again - the second big ass AHA effect. I did the exact same fucked up thing with mr sheep - pushing pushing pushing him! "where do we stand, what about monogamy, i want more more and more and i want it now cuz i waited months and still i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel" everytime i forced him more and more, the more he didn't want to be with me.

in my frustration back then i told mr sheep that if i can't see any bunnies or mushrooms i'll simply walk into another forest - basta. although he always tried to show me how far patience and persistence can take you, i got so stucked up in my frustration and sadness that i broke it off the next day. i felt hurt, i felt disappointed, i felt stupid because all i did was give give give for months without receiving anything simular in return - and i wanted it sooooo bad. even when he suggested to have a cup of tea with me soon i turned it down, saying that it never happens - he tried to motivate me, to not give up "hope"for things to happen.

well, he gave me the inspiration and two other people showed me how my own behavior just worked against me back then, pulling off the same behavior. i never meant to harm him. his nerves or to suffocate him with my love - but in the end i did. 

i wish i could turn back time and undo my mistakes with this man but i can't and maybe it's good that i crashed hard - this way i surely never fall back into my old habits. would be nice if mr sheep could see how much i evolved since back then - but he won't... cuz i messed up in so many areas - the only thing i can say in the end - he was the second man in my life, we broke it off three times because of my suffocating behavior and impatience - how could i've known better? it's not that common for a 23yrs old lady to not have a bunch of experience with dating men. he was the second and i stepped on new terrain with zero knowledge and i learned it the hard way. i truly wish that i learned that with someone else because not having him in my life anymore sucks and i let go even though it wasn't easy to be honest with myself that i screwed up with the wrong person.

ladies, if you let a man walk out of your life, let him do so for the right reasons - not because of your immature and stupid mistakes which result out of impatience and suffocation

thank you lemongrass

#10 inspired post

quote/pic by dapper_grandiose_fashion (instagram)

first let me say - justin aka dapper_grandiose_fashion (instagram) / king kravate "the neckwear of kings" (fb), i truly love your quotes - they inspire me so so much because they fit like a glove most of the time. thank you very much also for sharing your quotes with me, always a pleasure to "muse" with you. gotta do that again :)

nothing new: life is wicked - life is weird - life is unpredictable - life is amazing - life can make you go coconuts

moving on can be either a healthy, wise or dumb decision we can make - but in every case it's the same: it's hard but i did so. we experience so many things via our mind, our heart, our nerves in our fingers/lips etc everytime we touch or kiss - all of that + all emotions we felt during the past, laughs, giggles, cries, is going to be zipped into a box and is storaged in our memory, we have it storaged both in our conscious and subsconcious mind, so even if you want to let go - it doesn't happen in an instant. sure you can try it my way: playing piano, cook like you are cooking for a queen (yes sweetie, i treat myself like a queen), read a lot of books, doll up for no reason, go out and walk walk walk till you "emptied" out your head (ok, in my case after that my head is fuller than before), do volunteer work at the weekend or just sing out of your heart to your favorite songs (fuck yes i love to sing)! i have to admit that i'm not a person with a douzen friends, there are only very few but that's all i need - i've been always some kind of a loner but i'm happy with it!  i have too many weird thoughts about love, life and our world for many people to understand. although i say, nobody has to understand me - just respect me and if you respect me then you respect my thoughts and my work here.

i'm letting go of something, not for the first time, not for the second time - it's the third time. i never cried though, well if i did so then because i was full with anger and disappointment. but wait, this is not going to be an emo post!! everytime i thought i was getting over the mountain top - "hints" hit me each and everytime just before i could place my foot on the other side of the mountain - but it did in such funny and remarkable ways. i always say i don't believe in coincidence, but even i get creeped out from time to time.

no, it's really not because i'm trying too hard to see something that could remind me - no def not. i'm super aware of things around me and i always notice so many little things all the time. big love for detail

• like two people who see eachother at a party out of nowhere
• a weird weird masquarade party - ehm and no, usually none of us would go there
• a weird small unknown club - ehm no none of us has ever been there before
• yes, that night two people met again, at a unknown weird looner party at a unknown weird club where none of them has ever been to before
• yes, weird words were exchanged that night and yes, contact closure was over
  
•  few days after that party
• i saw a sticker of that damn club, sticking to the doors of a train - which of course stopped right in front of my feet - right in my face... jezzzz
• no, i never saw that sticker before and no, i never saw that sticker again - until now (read below)
• yes, instantly reminded me of that person - THANK YOU aaaaahhh
•  saw him at a party after 2nd break up 
• OF COURSE, i had to see him in every damn corner of that fucking club.
• said hi, of course i have manners, one look at eachother and we laughed - we just can't help it everytime we see eachother again - even after a break up - fucking weird nd nice
• i tried my best to avoid him, didn't even looked at him, turned my back and danced with my girls - of course he was standing 2-3m next to me
• even when i tried to walk away, smokers lounge, he was there!!!! that happend like 3 times, it  freaked me out - went to another corner of the club - he was there!!!!
• few months later - of course we screwed up again, or i might say he did - we broke up again, 3rd time dang this man is blind to see whats in front of him
  .
  6 days after break up - i was looking for a vet to bring my cat
• he popped out in the middle of other vets on google - like what the coconut crack is going on?!
• like seriously?! i'm looking for a god damn vet and he appears on the first page?!
• opening "his" link, leading me to an article about him and yes it made me laugh because it described him exactly as he is: a weird funny sheep - a sheep i can't be mad at. they wrote some things about this sheep, making me understand why i'll never have a bit of place in his life - because he is who he is and that's good. he lives his life to the fullest, no space for love which is sometimes called distraction...
•  2 days after 3rd break up
• was waiting for my train to bern, DIFFERENT PLACE, DIFFERENT TIME and guess which train came along and where it stopped?! right in my face with the same sticker on the same door, opening right in front of my eyes - what's wrong?!
•  few days after that
• movie night at home and better believe that his name popped up 3-4 times in DIFFERENT movies and no his name isn't as common as you might think - i was going nuts
•  as it isn't weird enough, my stepfather has a favorite tv serie, there's a group of guys and yes they call themselves exactly the same (can't go into detail, mr big will go nuts again)
• like this is just giving me chunky cococococooooconuts!!!!!!!!! of course he loves to watch it and everytime i'm home in germany i have to watch it too - father daughter tv tradition! u can bet ur sweet ass that everytime i go nuts
•  so here comes the very best part - even when i go ABROAD
• visiting my family for a weekend - guess who is also in germany - 90km from my frikkin door?! exact same date coming and leaving as i do - yes of couuuuuuuuuuuuurse!!!!!!! 
• germany is sooooo big, maybe 8 times bigger than switzerland - still in switzerland we live so close together, we run into eachother now and then even if it's almost impossible and now even if i travel faaaaaar away (550km) he is just "around the corner" 90km from my door.

i know this sounds so weird and unbelievable - i just know for myself that THIS, whatever it is, is not normal!!!! it upsets me but at the same time it makes me smile - i just can't get rid of that funny ass. although i deleted everything, number etc - i just can't get rid of him and i don't know why

WHY???!!!!

why again? why for the third time? why me? why not? haha - why is it so weird and crazy?! why isn't it like a regular break up? why does he drive me insane even when he's not around? why does he appear together with vets on google?! why does this stupid traindoor always stop right infront of me - i stood at TWO DIFFERENT places! - why? why? why? u have an idea mister?

maybe we two just met under weird/different circumstances, got to know eachother under weird/different circumstances, kiss eachother differently than with anybody else before, look at eachother differently, smile and laugh with eachother differently, have weird, crazy, stupid, nice, different memories together, have weird/different break ups, have weird/different "hints" around us, have weird/different talks about invisible lemongrass, bunnies, forests, champignons and ceps and some dangerous flu that infects you via water which has a super weird name, have weird/different names for eachother "hello, my name is invisible dumpling cep tortoise solar eclipse sunshine, and what's your name? oh nice to meet you mr big sheep lemongrass cloud"

we two are totally different, different from eachother in our looks (he's super tall and so well build - I'm super short and curvy), style, ethnic background, habits - but we have so much in common it's scary sometimes because together we ARE different from others because we click like crazy and when we click then something awesome happens which sets us apart from the rest. no regular ish!