#12 ladies only - fuck this housewifey shit, right?

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ok we all dream about prince charming who will conquer us, wine nd dine the shit out of us and hopefully proposes to us one day including moving into the perfect house with white fences, a dog nd kids - right? more or less, but all women - no matter how stupid, hoelike or smart nd ladylike - we all want to land that big catch one day, a guy who will sweep us off our feet, who we proudly talk about to our bff's nd families - who makes us happy, looks good, has a good job and of course who'd never cheat on us. and to all those "tough - i don't need a man i'm happy all by myself" girls - nobody wants to die desperate nd lonely huh, so don't pretend you'll be happy for the rest of your life alone just because you're too wack to get a good man. if you lose in game then be mature enough to admit that you ain't wowing anyone nd that u need some change girl!

ehm ok - what's today's date? - august 29, 2013

riiiiiiight, let me put on my super sexy fake smile!! cooking, cleaning, laundry and being caring are lame attributes on your "lady's list" - the only list you follow is the ladies list at the club on weekends - wow - you must be wowing a lot of good men huh. oh nd don't forget your fake housewifey pics on instagram - yeehhh u got it girl - ordered chinese nd claim u cooked it lol

by now when you are in your mid twenties you should make some space for good wifey features nd cross out "fucking as many hot dudes as i can without getting herpes" & "fuck this and that i party like there's no tomorrow - yolo biiiiitch" - ok before i get hunted down as soon as i walk out on the street, if you manage to be a good housewife and still find time for your friends nd go out etc thats totally fine, so don't panic ladies - but seriously there is a big conflict going on in our heads. i don't care who you want to blame, society, mtv, teen mom season 1 & 2 or your loose vagayjaaaay - on one hand you want mr perfect and of course he won't be a broke ass but on the other hand you don't see yourself as mrs housewifey. why the fuck should you, right? we live in 2013 not 1950! oh girl.... your mind is fucked as hell.

ok let's rethink this mess and walk in the shoes of our chosen mr perfect:

"for her i'd be as good as i can, make her happy, give her my love & time, kick my own ass so i'll get a well paid job so we can start building our life, family costs a lot of money u know, i want to support my future to be wife nd our kids - ain't no way i'll be broke then. she's worth it, she could be the one. "

those girls be like "oh my gaawwd he's perfect - but naaahhh no way i'll be cooking everyday - who does that?! if he's hungry he can cook for himself, naahh what about pizza, pasta nd burger bae? oh wait i can cook, what about bolognese or throwing meat in the pan? yeh i can do that. no way i put effort into learning how to cook if i can get those oven-ready meals. uuugh cleaning nd laundry also? what the fuck? I ain't got time to clean the house - why should i do it? he can do it, just because i'm a woman doesn't mean i'll play housewifey - uuuhh but baby, don't forget about our plans for a new car"

mr perfect "why should i work my ass off in order to support her nd build our future if she doesn't invest herself in the same way as i do?! where's the point in making her my wife if she doesn't behave like one? u can put in your dick in any girl who walks around, but none of them will be my wife later - ain't no man got time for a half ass lazy chick"

what i try to point out is that today's women (mostly) in my generation got all overwhelmed by the thought of being bad, tough girls who run the show at work nd at local clubs. none of them would title themselves proudly as a housewifey - take a look at your own mother. my mum is a super housewife, she can cook all kinds of delicious stuff, she does laundry for 4 people, cleans our house nd we have 7 floors huh! + she takes care of the kids emotionally nd still finds time to cuddle up with my dad on the couch. THAT'S what i look up to, i want to become a great wife and mother one day - she showed me how, she shows us kids everyday.

u know, behind every strong man stands a strong woman - how do you define strong? 

a strong man is a good hearted man, with respect, dignity, ambition to stand with both feet on the ground financially, a man with goals and plans how to realize them - at the same time a man whose touch is tender, who listens and supports you emotionally.

a strong woman is an understanding woman, with grace and believes. she's witty and stimulates you mentaliy, she can work as much as you do - she keeps herself busy and will be someone you can rely on when u lose your ground under your feet. at the same time she manages the housekeeping nd runs her own show - as a great partner, great wife or/and great mother.

fact is, us women we give birth not men - so yes, it's not just our natural instinct to take care of the kids it's also our responsability to take care of our kids environment = home. get it? fathers also take care of the kids emotionally but also financially!

how are you ever supposed to be a great mother / great wife when you can't even manage your household without kids? which man wants to wife a girl who can't cook healthy with variety and who can't keep her shit clean nd neat? no man with any common sense. improve your cooking girl, learn how to cook healthy, learn how to cook more than 5 dishes - learn how to keep your household on track.

want to be treated as wifematerial - act like you are all that and nothing less.

#16 inspired post

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irony strikes again - above you see carrie and mr big - oh irony you are so sweet when you creep up from behind and kick my romantic ass in a nice motion.

thank you irony

thank you mr big - thank you for nothing - thank you for everything

every now and then i reread my older posts, written with flourishing naivete, written with delusional passion, written with surreal longing. mr big, there i was. mr big, there i left. veiled wishes, unspoken insecurities - trying with highest peak of ocean deep passion to reach out. 

oh sweet irony how you lead me on

oh sweet irony how you brought me back down

oh sweet irony how you blessed me with another point of view 

i had the right words and thoughts all the time - dedicated to the wrong man

oh sweet irony

written passion didn't match the star i adored - abusive wishful thinking - leading me onto another milkyway, to another star, a star which was always there but out of my shortsighted eyesight.

let me quote my older posts:

#1 inspired post

" ladies, if you got a man's attention and turned it into respect, appreciation & a true friendship because of your ability to actually speak out with your heart & intellect - be confident about it cuz' he won't let you down for any cheap "sale" sign that passes his way and might turn his head for a second. - but at the end of the day they turned his head for a second - you turned AND captured his head, mind, respect & happiness for a life time. Think about it "

this was my very first inspired post, if i read it carefully and with my eyes & heart wide open, i realize that it didn't match mr big at all.

#9 inspired post

 "if we let people come close to us and open up for them then we give some kind of trust on loan conditions subconsciously. we don't expect much in return, we just wish for giving back trust and show us that our emotional investment wasn't a fail. i'm quite unsure if men are more capable to handle such sharing stuff - but us women are def not capable of doing so.
real men don't share because they are able to see the difference of a "quick snack" & something very valuable and therefor mark their terrain. they won't be satisfied by snacks, be sure they don't want to share you or even lose you to another man either. Be happy and prove him that he doesn't want to lose you because of other sale ads.nevertheless in my opinion exclusiveness shouldn't be taken for granted - and i highly value it, without it there is no way of having me on the tip of your little finger."

i gave away my trust on loan conditions and it wasn't worth it in the first place 

#10 inspired post

"that rollercoaster feeling that makes me feel so alive, more than ever. which made me realize that there is so much more to live for, one moment it goes up and I feel life's easy breeze on my skin, in the next moment it goes doooown and I scream and cry, but after the fall there is a curve in this special amazing rollercoaster which makes me jiggle and laugh and it makes me forget about that hyper fall. if you look into eachothers eyes after a long time and there still remains that instant spark, well then you know what it's about."

naivete cocktail at it's best - lust is the only puppetmaster in this game. stuck in a neverending maze without an exit sign. never again, cuz a man who really wants me will never put me in such a fucked up maze.

i gave away my trust and became vulnerable to my man - the difference is i didn't sign a loan conditions contract because i had security in my wallet, security he gave to me on his own, without asking. as i stated in one of my posts, a king will win with actions not words . oh sweet irony, you gave me the gift of inspiration, seemingly i wasted it on mr wrong but at the same time it opened a door for me.

every girl will meet her mr big sooner or later - he'll play the last nerve out of her, he'll make her curse destiny - but he'll give her the oppertunity of her life: by showing her all the wrongs, she'll notice all the rights in the man who is truly worth it. she'll never settle for less again, she'll never abuse her heart like that again - she'll be truly ready to meet her mr final destination because she'll never let the right man walk out of her life again. 

oh sweet irony

oh sweet irony.....

#11 ladies only - your pipe's worth

ps: hansi i miss you....... mama won't forget you <3

best pipes in town but girls treat them like a theme park? priding themselves sky high how bad they are - fooling themselves that they have the tightest pipe nd THEY fuck men real good?! give me a second to laugh my ass off.- ok CONTENANCE girls! - "he'll remember his best ride ever" ehm.... nope. probably he'll be checking with his doc for some STD once he realizes who he just banged and if he has any common sense. (tip: check yourself the next time, you never know especially when you hand over the keys that easy)

they sell themselves like cheap replicas - on the outside a bangin new audi nd on the inside a fucked up wack lancia with 900.000 km on the tacho, kebap nd burger stains, broken camshafts and a smokin pipe, yeh smokin from all that bullshit they pride themselves with  - so bad huh?

your pipe should match your package - you can be the whole package including parking system, smooth coniacian leather seats, sickest board computer, bang nd olufsen sound system and some nice rims. who wants a ferrari with 900.000 km which was handed over from one dirty fucker to the next dirty fucker - your worth decreases and decreases eachtime you give away another free ride with your pipe without him having any serious intentions. sure the same applies to men - but our sad society doesn't see "players" with a never ending hit list as less worthy, that's the sad truth - face it. those men will fuck around like there is no tomorrow, thinking once they decide to settle they can still pull diamonds out of the dirty coals - they need to face THEIR sad truth on their own soon enough.

it's foolish to think you can make a man settle with sex, sure he'll smash your ass, tell you how mindblowing good you suck him nd how u are the "sickest"- but will he make you his wifey? probably not - remember, nobody wants a wack nd broke ferrari when he can get a nice slick audi with less km and without those nasty stains - he'll hit you up for a free ride whenever he's bored but won't buy your cheap replica ass.

be picky - even if some girls look out for a fwb - be picky, you should be proud enough and worthy enough  to chose wisely who you invite for a ride. go and ask if you can ride a lambo for free - they'll be checkin you out and roll over the floor "man, you can't ride a lambo just like that" - THAT exact same look you'll be throwing on the next half ass player who tries to hook you up for free. because your pipe isn't a cheap theme park, right?

#1 astrology - my blue print Part 1

we can't be defined only by our sun sign - sun signs represent basic common traits of the zodiac signs.
if you are interested about how you or someone else ticks, take a closer look on these "personal" planets - they can indeed show up how and why you do the things you do. it's never 100% as the aspects of the planets have to be considered (this is higher knowledge, this post just covers basic stuff), BUT looking at your personal planets in the different signs can be very interesting and revealing.

above: by the way, this is my natal chart - well i know i'm often misunderstood and irritate others with my view on love & life - but there is more to know and to understand. having a stellium (more than 3 planets in the same sign) just strengthens the influcence... in my case: capricorn influence, a reason why I value security and steadiness so much. my aquarius influence isn't as strong as my capricorn influence - on the outside I might appear like a typical weird and outspoken aquarius - but my true self is rather a patient and calm capricorn. for example: recording to my general sun sign description i'm supposed to be a very cool and detached partner who fears committment and settling down - aquarius is the sign of revolution and radical change - my capricorn (the most conservative and traditional sign) planets explain why i'm indeed a very loving and caring partner who longs for a lasting relationship with someone to settle down with - overly in love with the thought of romance, old school courtship - love can't be too romantic for me. i have my venus in retrograde, that placement is very rare and it sheds some more light on my emotional side and needs. being born under the aquarius sun sign and having so many capricorn placements is a weird contradiction. i collected a few descriptions here and there.

curious about your own natal chart?
http://www.astrotheme.com/horoscope_chart_sign_ascendant.php

bold: i can identify with that
cursive: nah, not really

Sun in Aquarius
 
One of the standout characteristics of those born under the Sun Sign of Aquarius is their unwillingness to follow the beaten track. With advancement and progress on their minds, there can be an irreverence to old and outdated ways of thinking and doing things. 
Many Aquarians aim to free themselves of personal and social conditioning. Although open to change in theory, Aquarians can be surprisingly stubborn. Their idealism runs strong, but they can be very fixed in their opinions. 
Often a bit aloof and even standoffish, Aquarians nonetheless are usually well-liked. They are curious and observant, and tolerant in a broad sense. Prejudice and bias is offensive to the typical Aquarius. 
Aquarians are generally very clever, witty, and intellectual. They value progress and frankness. It's difficult to throw Aquarians for a loop--they're generally on top of things.
There is a bit of reformer in Aquarius. They'll try to get you to see through superficiality, and encourage you to be open and forthright. "Be true to yourself" and "Don't follow the crowd" are mottos we easily associate with this sign.
Aquarians need space and value personal freedom. Any attempt to box them in will likely fail. They'll happily return the favor; and they will treat people from all walks of life as equals. Equality and fairness are hallmarks of the sign. If you're quirky and "different", all the better. 



Moon in Capricorn
how we deal with emotions

• Being useful and productive are basic needs for Lunar Capricorns
• However turbulent their emotions may be under the surface, Lunar Capricorns keep cool-headed—and they come across as steady and reliable people. (out in public)
• Lunar Capricorns look for safety and security in most everything they do
• Most of them respect authority and tradition, and many are planning well ahead of the rest of us
• Truth is, they can have plenty of mood swings and some dark emotions now and again. Lunar Capricorns are often quite hard on themselves, and would benefit from letting their guard down once in a while
• Wherever Capricorn is found in the chart, there is a desire for structure and control. Capricorn is the sign of organization and efficient management
  
  
  

Moon in the 5th house

• You have a vivid imagination and are given to daydreaming often. There is a sense that you are always in touch, or trying to get in touch, with your inner child
• You are emotionally expressive and often dramatize your feelings, acting them out or blowing them out of proportion. You can not hide your instinctive emotional reactions to people or situations
• You have a childlike openness and playfulness which is very appealing to others, but which sometimes gets you into trouble, as you take risks on impulse or whim
• You love to share emotional experiences with loved ones and have a flair for the dramatic.
• For the Moon in 5th house individual “creating” is where they feel most at home. The individual may feel most absorbed in romance and emotional satisfaction plays a part in all of their romantic involvements

Mercury in Capricorn
how do we communicate

• These natives can have an authoritative air about them. They don't appreciate being taken off guard, and they quickly become impatient with people who don't honor their word
• They are easily bothered when others don't seem to "get" things that seem extraordinarily obvious to them
•  Mercury here has a preference for being an intellectual authority, and speculative thinking is highly mistrusted by this person. The mind has a practical bent, and is disciplined, thorough and capable of deep concentration
• They insist on being shown the facts to back up any statement they hear, and their natural scepticism often borders on cynicism
• Mercury in Capricorn are born worriers, often imagining the worst possible outcome. (getting less)

Mercury in the 5th house

• You tend to use your voice, whether written or spoken, as a means of creative self-expression
• You can be witty and humorous, an engaging communicator, and a fun friend. You love playing games, especially ones that employ your intellect
• In some way, you are very entertaining with the spoken and/or written word. Communication and intellectual rapport is most attractive to you when it comes to romance

Venus in Capricorn
what we seek for in matters of the heart

• You're a bit old-fashioned, with a dream to settle down and create something that lasts. It takes a while before you open up in love, and reveal an earthy sensuality that has staying power
• You're fairly discriminating, and know when you've found a well-rounded person that can be your rock
• You're not likely to be into one-night stands, and will see red flags with players, or those that are all flash and no substance
• You're looking for someone you can count on through thick and thin
• The individual is cautious and serious about love and they really desire a deep, genuine, lasting love. They are old fashioned about courtship, and will remain faithful to a partner through the good times and bad
• Sometimes they are attracted to a partner older than themselves, but it is often to someone who has a mature outlook on life, and they admire serious, responsible and reliable partners
• What these lovers place their highest value on is on giving and receiving respect, a strong sense of duty and loyalty in a relationship

Extra: Venus Retrograde
(Venus is retrograde approximately 7-8% of the time, so that approximately 7-8% of people are born while Venus is retrograde. next to my venus you can see a little R= retrograde)

• Love is extremely important to a person with a retrograde Venus, but they may not be explicit about it enough for others to know just how deeply they can love
• They can be somewhat shy in youth, as there can be an awkwardness felt concerning small talk and social graces, and an aversion for superficialities
• People born under Venus retrograde have to watch for self-sabotage in love relationships. There may be an underlying feeling of not being "good enough", attractive enough, or loveable enough.   (yeh... very true)
• Relationships can seem to make or break a person born with Venus retrograde, and this is because they take relationships so very seriously. There is a deep-seated fear of rejection with this position
• Venus retrograde people can have an unusual set of values regarding love relationships - at least that's what others may think
• Nevertheless, their ideas are very important and real to them, and many Venus retrograde people follow a strong moral code - it's just not necessarily the same code the majority follow
• While retrograde Venus people abhor superficiality in others, they may be focused on superficial aspects of themselves, such as through excessive body awareness/shyness or worry about their physical beauty
• Retrograde Venus natives can be a little difficult to love, as they seem to need more reassurance than others. There can be difficult childhood or early love experiences that contribute to complicated needs and fears in their current love life
• These people can also feel unworthy of love for some reason. (nailed...)

Venus in the 6th house

• Being of service to a partner is especially important to you. In fact, you might go to great lengths to be available at all costs to a loved one
• You show your love by your availability, rendering services, doing practical things for a loved one, and other thoughtful "little" things
• If you are not careful, you might pass up on true love opportunities in favor of relationships that serve a practical purpose in your life (yes, and now I decided to do the right thing - not giving in to expectations from others or what would be practical)
• Selling yourself short may be something that keeps you from going after what and who you want.
• You bring harmony and have success and popularity in your place of employment, and are a good mediator, arbitrator, or representative of women. You're caring, service oriented, and your critical faculties are excellent

 

#10 ladies only - dump his ass

▪ in my eyes the dating world is fucked up - thanks to both men and women who act fucked up coward. girls cry nd wait around for prince charming to get his lazy ass out of the tree - why? because we all had those moments when we tried to pursue, tried to push it to the next level - beside that this is so wrong, whiping off his lazy ass and adapt the male courting role - and we got pushed away. so we got all scared and decided to wait and wait, oh yes, and wait. we take lots of his shitty hot nd cold behavior, disappearing acts, no calls, no txts etc - instead of getting pissed nd dump his ass we make up with silly excuses "he's busy", "workaholic", "he needs time", "he's shy". 

ok now all together: B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T! 

it's significant how a guy's behavior can change after sex and so does our behavior change, like walkin on eggshells. if u reach the 2nd base with a guy - and in my opinion this means sex - then its like signing an unspoken contract. (not talkin about one night stands) if he gets the honor to earn your trust and gets intimate with you then his morals and respect should be so high that he knows how to act after sex. there are two simple options: 

1. put as much effort into getting to know u as he did before if he is interested 

OR 2. tell u within a few days that he's not that into you. 

no, us ladies don't get your coward "get the hint" behavior - stop stringing us along! man up, if you are man enough to put it in then be man enough to quit it soon enough. I made up my mind and that's where my power is: I have nothing to lose. so no, I won't chase you, I won't buy your cheap excuses, I won't let myself be stringed along, I won't let u disappear and get back like nothing happend. I'm open, I'm blunt and I know my worth - after a couple of days I'll confront a man's lazy ass and if he doesn't step up then I wave my sign - BYE BYE! cuz I'm not scared at all to "lose" something I never really had in the first place. think about it - the right guy will keep up his effort and interest over moooonths without lacking. 

so what did ur prince charming do?! few txts per week?! few times he actually cared enough to ask in detail how u doin, how ur day was, how YOU FEEL?! nah??? dump his ass, he has other options nd you are not important enough for him to focus on you. why should he be ur #1?!?!?! u r probably not even his #2,#3 or #4!!!! know ur worth and the right man will notice that. ▪ - Sarah Jessica