#24 ladies only - men aren't thaaat bad

it's true, you got hurt - i got hurt - we built up walls but do we really blame it on men? yes we do mostly, and no it's not correct nor is it in any way right. it's not only about what we receive or are willing to receive - it's more about what we are willing to receive. and that's too much most of the time cuz it's so easy to blame, right? but what if we just take a closer look at ourselves? what if we realize it's also up to us to shut doors and abondon heartbreakers?

just think about door-to-door seller, they try to sell you their goods the best way they can because they want your money. but it's you who decides what to buy and what not. ok i was lame at that cuz i used to buy every shit - literally - i bought a key tag for 80 chf just because i couldn't say no. hilarious right? buying a 80 chf key tag you really don't need? but i did and so did you - you didn't buy the key tag but you bought all these lies, hurt and resentment. not because you are stupid - ok some of you are - but you bought it in first place cuz you just couldn't say no. and that's ok cuz nobody's born perfect, right?! nobody's born with the attitude and experience of an alpha wolf female, so it's natural that we all go through try & fail situations in our lives. 

stupid are only the ones who go through fail after fail and still buy that crappy unnecessary key tag for 80 chf - stupidity won't last forever though but hey come one, you got better things to do with your life than continuing buying that crap. so what can you do to stop doing so? simply learn to say no. i know it's hard to say no cuz you fear to maybe overreact or blow a "chance" - but infact it's a win win situation - first of all it improves your confidence because that way you show gut and stand your ground - hey it really feels good!! trust me you'll feel so strong and more confident - second it safes you a lot of time. i see women from 20 - 30 in their most blooming years (biologically) so why waste that precious years on someone who isn't worth it? it's your own fault if you let the same guys run over you again and again cuz you hope the new guy won't be as disappointing as the others.

it always takes a good mixture of confidence, sanity, and understanding to say no - there's a difference between setting boundaries and simply releasing your inner "bitch-kraken" - just saying no to everything that doesn't match your expectation and cutting off guys isn't what makes you a happier girl. love requires compromising and compromising requires maturity, maturity to seperate "that's just what i want right now and i don't give a fuck if you understand it or not" and "hey let's talk about it, it makes me unhappy for so and so reasons, how do you see it. it makes me feel so and so, are you aware of that? if yes, are you able to compromise for me/for us? if not it makes it hard for me to get along with you and we need a common ground"

common ground is the key word - everyone has different ways to see things - that's good and necessary - but there needs to be common ground to start off together. if you and your boyfriend don't have common understanding and furthermore respect for eachother about how you interact with eachother, how you interact with other girls/guys outside your relationship, how you trust eachother and where you both want to stand in 5 or 10 years - then there's no future path for you both to walk on. see? that's why you need to learn to say no -> learn to speak up about what you are all about.

#inspired post - adorn

These lips can't wait to taste your skin, baby, no, no
And these eyes, yeah, can't wait to see your grin, ooh ooh baby
Just let my love
Just let my love adorn you
Please baby, yeah

You gotta know
You gotta know
You know that I adore you
Yeah baby

Baby these fists will always protect ya, lady
And this mind, oh, will never neglect you, yeah, baby, oh, baby
And if they try to break us down don't let that affect us, no, baby

You just gotta let my love
Let my love
Let my love adorn you
Ah, le-le-le-let it dress you down

You got to know
You gotta know
Know that I adore you
Just that babe

I... oh oh
Let my love adorn you baby
Don't you ever
Don't you let nobody tell you different baby
I'll always adore you
You gotta know know
You got to know know know
Now yeah

Ooh, yeah
The same way that the stars adorn the skies yeah (every night baby)
Oh, look up suga (every night baby)
Now, hey, hey, hey
The same way that my whole world's in your eyes (in your eyes baby)
Ooh, and this time now (and this time baby)

Just let
Let my love adorn you baby, hey
Le-le-le-let it dress you down
You gotta know, baby
Oh, you gotta know
Know that I adore you
Oh, love aint never looked so good on ya
Ooh, put it on baby
Let my love adorn you 

since this song came out it was my all time favorite song - it just had something i could really identify myself with. it's somehow hard to explain why and how but the first time i heard it it just sank into my soul and heart. like it became the melody of my heart, the beat it was beating to - adorn by miguel - whenever i heard this song it gave me chills, it set me into the mood of love - more than just making me horny it made me taste how love tastes eventhough i couldn't taste it back then.  things in life aren't always rational and furthermore you can't know when they'll happen - unexpected joy is the best in my opinion. 

IVLG hit 10000 - big thank you

didn't check the hits for a few days and baaaaaam - over 10'000 hits. it's not a biggie but thinking about it makes me happy and yes, a bit proud cuz when i first started off with my blog i never thought so many people would read my shit.

from the first post till now an evolution took place - jess 1.0 was a sweet, innocent, naive girl who lost herself in neverending romantic thoughts - jess 1.0 was drunk on her emotional whore trip. by writing post after post she learned, assessed and faced life's ugly truth - pain, disappointment and anger can open one's eyes if they are willing to stop running after the white rabbit that leads to an unreal place and keeps you stuck until you get devoured and spit out. jess 2.0 was born and she wasn't the same as before, she was more confident although things didn't go as she wished for, she was happier than before because she empowered herself by writing uncensored, knowing she could write about anything she wanted to and wether others hated or loved it, she wouldn't stop cuz it just started. jess 3.0 came to surface, appearing tougher, more outspoken, and def facing reality - writing about things others not dare to talk about in public cuz they fear the reaction of their friends or other people. i don't because that's what makes my blog so authentic - a fearless speaker is an honest speaker - it seems to be more aggressive and people misinterpret me as some ghetto chick, interesting aspect - men see me as ghetto like - that's a perfect example for the double standard. however, it's not about dissing - the way i write is the way i talk to my bff or other close people - i feel comfy talking that way cuz that's me, it's not enough to talk about things i need to add my sense of drama and wit because i like to make people laugh. topics and  problems are hard enough to handle, why not combine it with a dry sense of humor?

fact is, i'm still somehow the same girl at heart, romantic, cheesy, i tend to blush, i giggle weird, i curl up like a kitty cat, always hoping that things turn out good, happy ever after stories - but i'm more cautious cuz i learned from past mistakes. jess 3.0 is an alpha wolf lady and no one will fuck her over again. she is aware of her past and she is able to make the best out of her future and damn she won't fuss around with those stupid nonsense problems "why doesn't he call" yada yada yada - thank god, thank you irony, thank you insanity, thank you genius, thank you fucktards, thank you inspiration - thanks to my readers and most of all thanks to that guy who cursed my pussy. no need to censor, no need to hide, no need to turn angry again. it's not about the reason why i started my blog, it's about the reason why i keep writing.

#23 ladies only - handling fucktards

oh those desperate fucktards - fucktards everywhere - believe it or not, men can be even worse than women when it comes to spread rumors or start trippin cuz one of those creeps couldn't get a bite of your pussy cake. they don't really need you to hit that bat hard in their face - just a cocky look here, a turn down there or maybe the fact that you didn't greet his stupid ass and voilà - we have egg omelette. did you ever wonder where they come from?! all of a sudden you have an army of fucktards in your garden, peeing on your roses like dogs - sniffing their own shit after unloading their obvious wack ego-diarrhea. oh so lovely, smells like "man my ego is busted lemme stroke that shit by making her look like a whore".

Imma be like ...

especially when you hear shit that is obviously so dead wrong and false that it gives you chuckles - i can tell you one thing - if men make the effort to talk bullshit about you eventhough you don't know them really well or you didn't see them in moooooonths - you def crushed some eggs baby. high five on that - if you're on a hate-trip then spill it out, but if you start shit after years (?! like wtf is wrong with you) or months then i wonder what you do at home when you are alone? do you grab my pic, jerk off and hide in the corner crying cuz it sucks to depend on your hand? maybe you are just tired of miss p(orn) and all pussies which are available ain't shit? it doesn't really matter whose eggs you put in the crusher and pressed "10" - fact is they are either bored or try to cause a shitstorm in your personal life. never underestimate the bro love among men, it doesn't matter if 8 out of 10 guys wouldn't say shit about you, if 2 guys out of the "gang" feel the need to go after your sexy ass and make you look like a whore so they have an ego boner again - trust me the whole pack will be after you.

ladies, if you know that you didn't do anything bad and know that the rumors are false - don't investigate energy in sniffing out the ultimate shitter. although doesn't it say if you kill the ultimate boss vampire you kill all of his suckers that he infected? well that sounds alluring right, but don't involve yourself at all, beside that you'd only feed their thirsty dicks you'll look even more "guilty". just sit back, relax and smile bright like a motherfucking diamond the next time you see those fucktards. the less you try to fight them the less funny it is for them - you have nothing to hide nor to fear.

i must admit it strokes my own ego lol cuz none of these thirsty wannabes got a hold on me and instead of stunnting around like they own the world with their wack sneakers, wack beards which make them look like creepy pedophiles, cheap ass whores who suck their dicks in a row cuz they are so fame hungry - remember sharing is caring - just look at them this way: they swing around their dicks for every whore to suck or to fuck, those wackos won't pull diamonds out of coals, they live a wasted "yolo" life and those are exactly the ones who'll settle for a basic bottom bitch - because at age 40 none of the sane alpha ladies will waste their time with loosers like them and all they bang is young pussy (who'll get bored of your old dick after you fucked her a few times) and when they finally get a girl to settle down it will be one of the girls from the good old days back then who used to deepthroat all of their homies.

sucks to be you huh

#22 ladies only - men love bitches

she looks fab, she's bad, she pulls men's attention like light does with flies so they buzz around it until they burn, she never runs out of men wanting to be with her (probably for fucking her anyways but that's not the point), she isn't all nicey nicey so she drops her potencial lovers within seconds, she has a cocky attitude , she is a bitch in the eyes of others - why the fuck are men so fascinated by her and keep chasing that bitch when you can't keep a man's attention and effort although you see yourself as every man's blessing? do you find yourself in situations thinking "dude, why can't you see with anything else than your avarage dick and see what kind of wifey-type i am?" probably continuing with "i'm different/my pussy rides cock like no one else/i'm like the creme de la creme/i'm not a basic bitch/etc"

well the difference between you and mrs bitch-who-pulls-more-attention-than-you-and-gets-the-guy is simple: she thinks AND acts like she is a big catch for no man to miss, if he does then she waves a big "get outta my eyeseight dude" sign. it is irrelevant if she is a nice person with a good heart or if she'd be a loving girlfriend who supports her man and cares for him - i bet most of those "successful" maneaters are drop dead wasted souls with no gut at all - BUT and here's what you should learn from those superior bitches: they might be stupid and cocky and all that stuff that would make you give them a high five with a chair but they have boundaries and furthermore they stick to them regardless if mr average knocks on their door or if mr omg-he's-hot does so. they treat every man equal, they don't allow themselves to unleash their inner emotional whore who ruins everything and gives you a free seat to destination "heartbrake", no they keep themselves in check and have clear dating rules.

trust me ladies, i'm the last one who likes cocky, narcissistic, stupid barbie bitches who show off nonstop - looking fab with their makeup 23/7, running around "naked" one hour of the day when they scratch that shit off their faces and look basic just like everyone of us does when we wake up. i dislike women whose minds are dry like the dessert, the only impression they can make is with their perfect outlook and the only concerns they deal with are "where did you get those high heels / omg why isn't my name on the guestlist" - but it's not about what you think of those girls, at the end of the day they attract more potencial lovers than you. don't panic you don't need - and please, really don't consider that - to transform into the next superbitch, you wouldn't feel happy with it in the long run nor your friends or family. no one likes fucked up bitches - not even men - they don't run after their cocky narcissistic asses, they get hooked because those women challenge them, they give them a great possibility to conquer something - men love to conquer! and it's not explicit about how long or how hard the conquest is, it's about "feeling" that there is something to lock down before someone else does because it seems so promising and great. maybe it's just that mysterious thing about those women because they keep those men at armslength emotionally and physically. as i mentioned once, having sex on the first date isn't a complete no go - it's about how you act afterwards.

let's have a seat, grab some icecream or wine - oh did i mention i prefer captain morgan - however, let's start with this overview where i compare mrs basic bitch with mrs bitch-who-gets-the-guy.

initiating via texting (whatsapp/fb/mail/etc)

basic bitch: initiates - texts him first almost every time
alpha wolf: doesn't initiate - texts him back equally to the amount he texts if not even less - isn't glued to the phone waiting for him to text

basic texting

basic bitch: texts more than he does - continues textshitting him even if he didn't reply to her last text - drowns him with smileys especially if he started sending those stupid heart smileys eventhough he doesn't know her really - texts him essays - texts back asap

alpha wolf: texts him back equally to the amount of his replies - doesn't continue texting when she didn't get a reply - doesn't send any of those emotional smileys - doesn't text essays - texts in a nice short way - doesn't always reply in an instant because she has other things on her mind

he doesn't call / he "disappears" suddenly / he becomes unreliable

basic bitch: texts him from time to time hoping things win back intensity - if he comes back after he didn't write her for a few days/weeks although he was supposed to answer her last text, she replies gladfully in an instant - doesn't question his intentions or why he disappeared without a word - tries to play it cool although she is disappointed somehow

bitch: doesn't run after him - she cuts him off completely because she knows a man who is truly interested won't disappear out of nothing 

just to name some differences between a basic bitch and bitch-who-gets-the-guy, i bet we were all in the role of the basic bitch at some time and where did it lead us? it lead me straight to a big heartbrake, to lasting disappointment, trust issues and lasting anger until today haha although i can laugh about it now - but the most important aspect of my big heartbrake: it formed me to a more cautious, more confident, more assertive, more selective woman - i'm like jess 2.0 - don't you think women of that 2.0 type don't get confronted with douchebags, all women get confronted cuz a man can't know in advance by only looking at you that you are now an alpha wolf and not some pink pussy shit anymore. but the main difference here is alpha wolf lady might get confronted but she'll draw the lines of her boundaries faster than that motherfucker can plan out how to get between her legs and pull the famous "hit nd' quit it". let's see it this way it's a win-win situation, she doesn't waste her precious time and nerves and he can move on to an easier prey.

men will knock on your door, no matter if you're a beta kitten or an alpha wolf, because men try, because men often are too lazy to find new pussy, so it's easier to go back to what they already had once or more - but it's your own choice who you let in. remember what you've been through till now, remember those times when you were waiting for him to reply and he simply didn't although he was online non stop (oh i had that situation too), remember those times when he dumped plans with you last minute, remember pain because there is a reason why we feel pain - to safe us from more unnecassary pain, to safe us from making the same mistake twice. i know it's hard for many of us women, but once you become version 2.0 you'll never go back.

it's not about becoming mean - men same as women hate stupid mean antisocial bitches - it's about reconsidering your behavior and learning from your mistakes. learn to draw lines, boundarie lines, around you and your heart - become somewhat of a diva without coming over as mean or cocky. don't be a basic bitch - i don't care if you think you think like a boss, work like a boss and fuck like a boss - that's just a wack try to stand out of the crowd but at the end of the day you weren't able to kick out his stupid ass, you run after him, you give too many chances, you open your legs and his friends know you are an attention whore who gets laid whenever you give that sheep some candy - don't be a sheep that gets fucked by the nasty farmer cuz that's what happens to sheep.